I don’t understand anymore. Like now, I don’t get the butterflies, you don’t manage to facinate me anymore. I think if you just put a bit of an effort you would manage to spark up this dim flame I feel for you right now.
I don’t get it, if you really don’t care about me then why bother speaking to me, I swear if I were you I wouldn’t even speak to me. Conversation has gone dry and I don’t see the point in things anymore. You’re a great person, so find a great person for you not just a girl who doesn’t seem to excite you in any way. Right now I’m starting to feel how you might have felt for me or still feel for me; mind the fact I’m talking about me, but jeez I would have been bored talking to me since I don’t manage to excite you. I wish I could, I want us to have conversations not silly talk, ask me how I am, how’s my day, what I like; cummon man you don’t even know what I love in this world and I guess you don’t even care. I always ask you but you take my words and change it to something dull and useless.
You are a wonderful person, you have a very hidden personality and only once they get to know you, people will see right through you; sometimes i feel like we are on different levels, we want different things and that’s ok. I don’t want to change you, and I don’t want you to change me cause I tried seeing what you want and that doesn’t make me happy because it’s not me. I wish I could tell you all this but I always find it hard to say things when you make it hard on me.
I need a person in my life that I can talk to, understand me and be there for me. I kinda realized that teenage crushes flirt and fun is starting to get boring, it just doesn’t make me happy and i’m realizing now. Well hell if i got a mixture of both it would be amazing but if its the silly lust thing i’m not really up for it. I really hope one day you understand that feeling, if not with me with someone else.